Safe Trip Home
Recently I came across a youtube video catching life in mumbai from the eyes of a lady taxi driver. Its a short film and gave me moments of smile. I felt like I am really at my birthplace and I am surrounded by those people who may be brown, many be sweating, may be eating at the unclean panipuri ka stall.
I am trying to say something but I am unable to write it down. Man I am confused. Did I really want to come here? Wasnt I alienated enough before coming over here due to my thinking and my "social skills!".
I hoped that this country is land of free and brave. I am brave and I want to stay free. I hoped for that before coming over here. Then why am I feeling sudden pull towards India? May be its effect of not eating chicken for last 11 days. !! :P Ah.. whom am I kidding. No but seriously I have not had a single piece of chicken or even egg, nor alcohol.!!
whatever .. the point is I am feeling a pull towards my country, my people. Is it my mom and dad I am missing? Looking back at my past 10 -15 days I have hardly had a conversation with them. (they were out for some business for few days nad all blah blah.. ) But still I havent had any conversation with them. and I am not feeling pull for them!! (am I?) (Is it like when you are sleepy but you can sleep!!?? ) Or is it the girl that I used to be with pulling me like an invisible thread? Was she feeling the same rather does she feel the same? or she is over me?
I need to decide on what I want to do in my life. I need to take that decision pretty soon. I am almost there (last time it was not even my decision to come here to USA.. but that worked quite well for me..!! Thank you so much to Anay who pushed me into this). I need someone to be with me for sure. In good or bad in health and in sickness.. !! if someone is there I would start working for that person. It has been my life till today to work for someone..facilitating their growth. I would work like that with all the joy.
Now I am rambling.. Should I call her? and ask her?So much of f***ing tension.. I donno.. please somebody (thats me ultimately ) help me take this last life decision.. ! :(
Till the time you voyeurs.. Do listen to that song nad watch the video..
Here is the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LoTuaMPBDI
I would be doing the things I normally do .. bbye..
"Let's Do The Things We Normally Do"
Let's pretend that we'll be here tomorrow
And I'll try for you to be a little more on time
I know you need to say you know you've let me down
But you haven't and it's hard to talk with people all around
Please don't say how proud you are
Lets do the things we normally do
I'll say see you later
You'll sing a line or two
From your rebel songs sung out of tune
Don't hold my hand for longer than you need to
Lets forget that we're here and make some plans
We'll go for walks
Sit on the bench we always sat
I'll tell you every little detail of my day and so will you
Don't try to stay awake
I'm feeling tired too
This is just another day
Let's do the things we normally do
I'll say see you later you'll sing a line or two
From your rebel songs sung out of tune
Don't hold my hand for longer than you need to
Armored cars and tanks and guns came to take away our sons
And everybody's stood behind
The man behind the wire
There's a fight to love
A fight to have
Your bed's a battlefield and back
And all of this will just be stripped away
Let's do the things we normally do
I'll say see you later you'll sing a line or two
From your rebel songs sung out of tune
Don't hold my hand for longer than you need to
Don't look me in the eye more than you need to
Don't try to say goodbye if I don't want to
Don't say how proud you are
And say I'm far away
and take along your
and say a word
and I can say fade away
I am trying to say something but I am unable to write it down. Man I am confused. Did I really want to come here? Wasnt I alienated enough before coming over here due to my thinking and my "social skills!".
I hoped that this country is land of free and brave. I am brave and I want to stay free. I hoped for that before coming over here. Then why am I feeling sudden pull towards India? May be its effect of not eating chicken for last 11 days. !! :P Ah.. whom am I kidding. No but seriously I have not had a single piece of chicken or even egg, nor alcohol.!!
whatever .. the point is I am feeling a pull towards my country, my people. Is it my mom and dad I am missing? Looking back at my past 10 -15 days I have hardly had a conversation with them. (they were out for some business for few days nad all blah blah.. ) But still I havent had any conversation with them. and I am not feeling pull for them!! (am I?) (Is it like when you are sleepy but you can sleep!!?? ) Or is it the girl that I used to be with pulling me like an invisible thread? Was she feeling the same rather does she feel the same? or she is over me?
I need to decide on what I want to do in my life. I need to take that decision pretty soon. I am almost there (last time it was not even my decision to come here to USA.. but that worked quite well for me..!! Thank you so much to Anay who pushed me into this). I need someone to be with me for sure. In good or bad in health and in sickness.. !! if someone is there I would start working for that person. It has been my life till today to work for someone..facilitating their growth. I would work like that with all the joy.
Now I am rambling.. Should I call her? and ask her?So much of f***ing tension.. I donno.. please somebody (thats me ultimately ) help me take this last life decision.. ! :(
Till the time you voyeurs.. Do listen to that song nad watch the video..
Here is the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LoTuaMPBDI
I would be doing the things I normally do .. bbye..
"Let's Do The Things We Normally Do"
Let's pretend that we'll be here tomorrow
And I'll try for you to be a little more on time
I know you need to say you know you've let me down
But you haven't and it's hard to talk with people all around
Please don't say how proud you are
Lets do the things we normally do
I'll say see you later
You'll sing a line or two
From your rebel songs sung out of tune
Don't hold my hand for longer than you need to
Lets forget that we're here and make some plans
We'll go for walks
Sit on the bench we always sat
I'll tell you every little detail of my day and so will you
Don't try to stay awake
I'm feeling tired too
This is just another day
Let's do the things we normally do
I'll say see you later you'll sing a line or two
From your rebel songs sung out of tune
Don't hold my hand for longer than you need to
Armored cars and tanks and guns came to take away our sons
And everybody's stood behind
The man behind the wire
There's a fight to love
A fight to have
Your bed's a battlefield and back
And all of this will just be stripped away
Let's do the things we normally do
I'll say see you later you'll sing a line or two
From your rebel songs sung out of tune
Don't hold my hand for longer than you need to
Don't look me in the eye more than you need to
Don't try to say goodbye if I don't want to
Don't say how proud you are
And say I'm far away
and take along your
and say a word
and I can say fade away
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